SATURDAY, OCTOBER 13 2018
Vi
PaulinaBo is chubbier than I last seen him
4:26 AM
PaulinaOmg girl I wish I could have you over rn. Our house is clean clean, we got our backyard knocked down finally and it looks so nice. I made stir fry with eggs and chicken. My stir fry is God tier level now. We still have some left and it would make me so happy if you could be here
4:34 AM
ViThat sounds fantastic
6:35 AM
PaulinaDiana is my hero
4:09 PM
PaulinaThat bubbles on top of your guyses head makes me giggle so good
4:09 PM
ViDiane is pretty funny. I really like her alot.
5:50 PM
ViSometimes she reminds me of you
5:50 PM
PaulinaHow old she is
5:50 PM
ViShe saif she was like a brother today and it made me think of your and you being a brother to your sibs lol
5:50 PM
PaulinaWhat highs cool she go to?
5:50 PM
ViShes 18 and has a two year old
5:50 PM
PaulinaOooh idk she seemed familiar to me
5:51 PM
PaulinaShes like Lilia age
5:51 PM
ViMaybe you've seen her in passing or something
5:51 PM
ViHow you? I keep panicking thinking i have work later but its my daysss off
5:53 PM
ViI haven't seen my boy in like 3-4 days. I'm really excited to see him âĄ
5:54 PM
PaulinaI'm. Never a huge fan of smudging
9:30 PM
PaulinaI look like a raccoon
9:30 PM
PaulinaIt makes your baby blues pop tho
9:30 PM
ViI can see that. Sometimes it can look that way
9:34 PM
PaulinaWhat ya getting dressed up for
9:36 PM
ViI just wanna look good on my day off lol
9:36 PM
PaulinaI had perfect wings until I cried while puking
9:37 PM
ViI love liquid but my eyes are NOT THE SAME
9:38 PM
PaulinaI don't carry eyeliner with me either :(
9:38 PM
Vii know most aren't but i have more lid on one?
9:38 PM
ViOuh you should get a travel one for touch ups
9:38 PM
PaulinaI have like 3 of the same liquid eyeliner at home lol
9:38 PM
PaulinaI guess in afraid it'll. Spill
9:39 PM
ViPut it in a ziplock
9:39 PM
ViThat would suckkk
9:39 PM
PaulinaI would be so upset
9:40 PM
ViI want to get better at makeup
9:42 PM
ViMaybe we could video chat someday
9:42 PM
PaulinaSome of those insta art bitches are just too good
9:42 PM
ViAnd do the same makeup tutorial
9:42 PM
PaulinaSome of Dat shit expensive
9:42 PM
PaulinaHey what phone do you have
10:49 PM
SUNDAY, OCTOBER 14 2018
Vi
ViGlazxy 8 i think the edge one
12:15 AM
ViMaybe 9 but i think 8
12:15 AM
PaulinaAlso i opened your vids in Walmart and couldn't hear shit :(
3:14 AM
ViNoo lol same with harely
3:25 AM
ViI made a little rap beat about snow globes
3:25 AM
PaulinaLol I love how fucking strange you are sometimes
4:00 AM
Vi[photo]4:27 AM
PaulinaWe're like both awkward people his dad and I but like sometimes we say stuff to one another that the other gets embarrassed about sometimes lol
4:27 AM
ViAlso accurate becuase I'm cleaning my roo.
4:28 AM
PaulinaLolz I was high on life when I took that photo
4:28 AM
ViBut after seeing this photo....
4:28 AM
ViI DON'T FEEL LIKE CLEANING MY ROOM
4:28 AM
PaulinaI was like super energetic and poppy and cass was like bruh calm. Down didn't you just come from a 12 hour shift?
4:28 AM
PaulinaBut hey, you're cleaning your room. Now lol that's all that matters
4:29 AM
ViIts that second wind
4:29 AM
Vi[photo]4:29 AM
Vi[photo]4:29 AM
Vi[photo]4:29 AM
ViI get that way too
4:31 AM
ViI get so peppy i sing after worl
4:31 AM
PaulinaYou're just so happy to leave
4:31 AM
ViFor real ðĪðĪðĪ
4:59 AM
PaulinaOmg it looks so nice out
9:28 PM
PaulinaI gotta call my. Mom's first hole up
9:48 PM
PaulinaYou got three whay
11:06 PM
MONDAY, OCTOBER 15 2018
Vi
ViI got three holes
12:13 AM
Vi5 if your kinky
12:14 AM
Vi7 if your a freak
12:14 AM
PaulinaOmg lololo
12:14 AM
PaulinaThat's absolutely the most amazing thing 8ve read ðĪĢðĪĢðĪĢ
12:14 AM
ViI'm good good great or somthing
12:15 AM
PaulinaYeppers I worked for shedeain
2:19 AM
PaulinaYellow shirt is super cute
2:19 AM
PaulinaVery salsa ð
2:19 AM
ViI thought it was kinda cute
2:21 AM
ViThats cool i found that
2:21 AM
ViI WAS LIKE HEYYY
2:21 AM
PaulinaThey make good umbrellas lol
2:26 AM
ViMaybe a good breaker
2:28 AM
PaulinaThey're stuff is usually good quality
2:29 AM
PaulinaWho's face is that
11:31 PM
ViI know. Its the glasses
11:41 PM
ViAnd your face âĄ
11:41 PM
TUESDAY, OCTOBER 16 2018
Vi
PaulinaI wish God would take me too
2:49 AM
ViGonna try to get back to it. I'll try to give you a call when i wake up if i have time :(
2:49 AM
PaulinaWhen I'm puking from all my whole
2:49 AM
PaulinaOh you don't work today?
2:49 AM
ViYa girl was horny and got turned down earlier and had to dyi
2:50 AM
PaulinaLol dyi prison dildo
2:50 AM
ViI do :((((((((((((((((((
2:50 AM
PaulinaAll ya need is a sock
2:50 AM
PaulinaSome cotton balls
2:50 AM
PaulinaAnd a glue gun
2:50 AM
ViCuz im an adult and a law abiding citizen
2:50 AM
ViPsh you don't ger glue guns in prison
2:51 AM
PaulinaLol civil, discrete masturbation
2:51 AM
PaulinaOk take ya nappy poo
2:51 AM
ViOh and i mean about about to try to takw a bitch ass nap
2:51 AM
ViTalk to ya later if i can pukzo
2:51 AM
ViI love you ðĪŪðĪððīð
2:52 AM
PaulinaLove you boo
2:52 AM
Zimm
PaulinaAin't that the truth lol just gotta keep that royal ego going! And thanks!
4:17 AM
ZimmIs that your halloween costume?
4:19 AM
PaulinaPerhaps, i was just doing laundry and found it and made me pretty happy lol
4:26 AM
Zimmah okay. It's like finding an extra 10$ in a pocket you forgot to check. lol
4:36 AM
PaulinaBecause you can be a ballerina princess
4:36 AM
ZimmDidn't you ice skate for a while? Be a disness princess, on ice!
4:40 AM
ZimmI'm a tad liquored up, btw lol
4:41 AM
PaulinaI ice skated for fun a handful of times lol but with a tutu on I'm sure anything is possible. Magically become a figure skater thanks to the power of pink and fluffy fabric
4:43 AM
Zimmoh i thought i remembered you being like really good at it
4:48 AM
ZimmAlthough tutus do make eveything better
4:49 AM
PaulinaI can skate pretty decent
5:03 AM
PaulinaBut only been on ice about 4 times I. My lifd
5:03 AM
Paulina*In my life
5:03 AM
Vi
PaulinaHow cold is 8t there
2:33 PM
PaulinaIt's like 40
2:33 PM
ViDamn. Hmm i don't know
7:04 PM
ViIts been warm later in the dsy
7:04 PM
PaulinaTake a good naps
7:15 PM
PaulinaSnack break then right back at it with the naps
7:15 PM
ViYeah it was a good nap
7:22 PM
ViYes time for food and maybe a cat nap nefore work
7:23 PM
PaulinaYo what's yo address again
7:25 PM
Vi13045 se stark #118 portland OR 97233
7:25 PM
Viwould you screen shot that
7:36 PM
ViI meant to save thay
7:42 PM
PaulinaI didnt screensshot
7:43 PM
ViAlso thanks for finding those pillies
7:43 PM
ViCass looks alittle skinner?
8:04 PM
ViOr you just hitting those angles
8:04 PM
PaulinaProbs just angles cuz he's kinda gordo rn
8:06 PM
PaulinaOh my gosh so presh
10:11 PM
PaulinaGood yob with ya room. I wish I sent you update snaps on my living room before cass wrecked it.
10:11 PM
ViI know. We're cute
10:17 PM
ViThanks. Slow progress
10:17 PM
ViI have so much trash
10:17 PM
ViI don't identify with human
10:18 PM
ViBut I'm species fluid i also identify with a rat
10:18 PM
ViYou can just call me victoria
10:19 PM
ViTf??he did allll that in one night? Why
10:19 PM
ViAnd he didn't even mentioned that you cleaned
10:19 PM
ViI would start throwing cases of soda
10:20 PM
PaulinaHe thanked me. Before. I went to. Bed. Then proceeded to stay up all night. The disaster ensued.
10:31 PM
PaulinaLolol Ratoria
10:31 PM
PaulinaUggghhh. Hes been good. But fuuuuck he hasn't had like a. Full night's sleep in like two nights and that's when he gets fucking shitty
10:32 PM
ViCan he not sleep?
10:32 PM
PaulinaI'm a beat raaat
10:32 PM
PaulinaNo. Him doing stuff.
10:33 PM
ViOr just doesn't lay his ass down
10:33 PM
PaulinaHe only Down for a couple of hours each night
10:34 PM
ViHow many hours?
10:36 PM
PaulinaIdk i was asleep
10:37 PM
PaulinaI would just wake up to him there in the morning
10:37 PM
PaulinaI'm having I hate him day. He really has persistently ruined my day.
10:38 PM
ViI've had days like that
10:41 PM
PaulinaIm sorry. I don't mean to bog you down. I really fucking hate him when he uses. I hate him dude.
10:42 PM
ViYou're good dude. I'm always here when you need an ear
10:43 PM
ViHas he been using again?
10:43 PM
PaulinaHes never really stopped. He just slowed down.
10:43 PM
PaulinaBut he's been hitting it hard since Brittany showed up two days ago.
10:43 PM
PaulinaThey get around each other and it's game. Over
10:44 PM
ViI just say what i say becuase i love you
10:44 PM
ViGet the fuck out of there.
10:44 PM
ViThat's not okay
10:44 PM
ViI thought he stoped.. ugh. I'm sorry I've just been seeing the shit that goes down over at Lisa's with hanna
10:46 PM
ViAnd i can't stand meth.
10:46 PM
ViI can't stand him treating you shitty when hes not treating himself right
10:46 PM
ViYou don't deserve that...
10:46 PM
PaulinaI really do. Just want to come. Home. He's awful. His dad has been so sweet but the rest of. His family is just full of problems and drugs.
10:47 PM
ViAnd Brittney.. god. I'm sorry if I'm comming of harsh. It just really twist my stomach to the point it makes me sick. I care alot for you paulina and i really don't want to see you stuck.. i want the best for you.
10:48 PM
PaulinaThis whole time. It's been just a battle. Im right there with you. But I just explode sometimes and he twists it to make me. Look crazy.
10:49 PM
PaulinaMake the sober person look crazy.
10:49 PM
PaulinaShit dude.
10:50 PM
ViDo you think it'll get better?
10:50 PM
ViAnd do you think he can handle the stress of a baby?
10:50 PM
PaulinaI don't know right now. It was for a. Second. I was contemplating trying to get a job quick soi could have money
10:51 PM
ViMoney in general or to go home
10:51 PM
PaulinaIn general.
10:51 PM
PaulinaPay my. Own bills. Be independent of his bullshit
10:51 PM
ViJob would be good
10:52 PM
PaulinaI don't know if pregnant lady's get hired on too often tho.
10:52 PM
ViWell like I've told you. If you ever need anything, I can figure stuff out for you
10:52 PM
PaulinaThat's my only fear
10:52 PM
ViMy mom worked preggo
10:52 PM
PaulinaDid she apply while she was preggo lol
10:52 PM
PaulinaIt's one thing to have the job the. Get preggo
10:53 PM
ViShe had a few diffrent jobs. Pizza place and 711
10:53 PM
ViDoes his dad knows he uses?
10:53 PM
PaulinaIdk. After my dhs appointment tomorrow Ill look into jobs
10:54 PM
PaulinaEveryone knows
10:54 PM
ViAlso how did all three siblings get so mixed up in drugs?? The fuck
10:54 PM
PaulinaHis grandma fucking chews me out now becauseshe suspects her golden grandson uses
10:54 PM
PaulinaI think brit started it
10:54 PM
Vi.. i guess its like brad and lisa they just deal with it becuase its eaiser when they use
10:54 PM
PaulinaBut I don't really k ow. I might not ever know now that Karen is gone
10:55 PM
PaulinaShes the only one who'd actually talk to. Me. And be real.
10:55 PM
ViChews you out?
10:55 PM
ViLike she tempted and put it out there? Also thays fucked i remember she joked about them doing meth together and it upset you
10:56 PM
PaulinaYeah she's also like super weird about us not visiting her and gets aggro. She's already trying to take my. Kid off my hands already so "I can work" she's nutzo. She's never had a biological kid and I thi k that's why she's so crazy
10:56 PM
ViDamn dude.. I'm sorry she's gone.
10:56 PM
PaulinaThey've been doing it together
10:57 PM
PaulinaFor awhile. Now
10:57 PM
PaulinaThat first time she joked about it she gave him some. Behind my back
10:57 PM
ViThats alittle much
10:57 PM
PaulinaI fuckin miss her. Everyone is kind of awful here.
10:57 PM
PaulinaI'm just going to focus on my diarrhea hurt so I don't have to thi k too hard on the rest lol
10:58 PM
ViImma come down to pittsburg and punch her
10:58 PM
ViI don't care if shes mean
10:58 PM
Paulina I think brit could kick my ass lol
10:59 PM
ViI'm low key crazy deep down
10:59 PM
PaulinaJust frame her for something and call her PO and get her in jail lol
10:59 PM
PaulinaBrits a big girl idk vic
10:59 PM
Vi[photo]10:59 PM
PaulinaI'm not afraid of a lot of girls but brits one of em. She got that meth strength lolol
11:00 PM
ViYeah... I've heard of hannas
11:00 PM
ViI've already thought it out in my head and the feeling ofnit
11:00 PM
ViI would bite and rip skin off with my teeth
11:00 PM
PaulinaBut the blood
11:01 PM
ViI thought about that too
11:01 PM
ViYou go to the hospital after
11:01 PM
ViThey give you pills
11:01 PM
PaulinaDoes it work like that?
11:02 PM
ViIf you catch it quick you can avoid it
11:02 PM
ViYes they do that with rapes
11:02 PM
PaulinaI thought once you mix blood and it's in your blood stream your done
11:02 PM
ViI don't think so
11:02 PM
PaulinaI did not know
11:02 PM
ViI think it takes a bit to work its way in
11:02 PM
ViI need to do more research
11:02 PM
PaulinaHuh. Yeah I wouldn't want to test that out lol
11:02 PM
ViThe biting thing is probably saved for if imma die or get beaten to a pulp
11:03 PM
ViProbably won't start any fights
11:03 PM
PaulinaHit em in the breathers. Neck or stomach
11:03 PM
PaulinaBut bitch gon end em
11:03 PM
Paulinathat's for sure
11:03 PM
ViIsaac told me to spit in the face then sucker punch
11:03 PM
ViAlso look at the legs
11:04 PM
PaulinaI would be cotton mouth
11:04 PM
PaulinaFrom. The adrenalin
11:04 PM
ViYou kick the knee and knock it in
11:04 PM
PaulinaI can do thT
11:04 PM
ViBut back that shit
11:04 PM
ViSo she did that
11:04 PM
ViShes just trying to drag him down?
11:05 PM
PaulinaShes a hot mess
11:05 PM
ViShe obviously doesn't respect you fuck.
11:05 PM
PaulinaWho just happens to grip on to anything while she goes down
11:05 PM
ViShe just needs to to jail
11:05 PM
ViI'm hoping hanna gets sent away
11:05 PM
PaulinaThat's what cass is trying to do
11:05 PM
ViFucking trash is what she is
11:05 PM
PaulinaHe ki da has been supplying her to. Make sure she does
11:05 PM
PaulinaWhich.. Is unethical but I have not been stopping cass from doing it
11:06 PM
ViDamn. Like cass wants to try to get her locked up
11:06 PM
PaulinaBecause we all want it to work.
11:06 PM
ViHe better be careful in the process
11:07 PM
ViWhats keeping you in pitts
11:07 PM
PaulinaShes an addict through and through. He's told her she's a. Big girl. And told her what hoops she needs to pull with her PO. She comes to him without fail for more. He's already talked to her so whatever goes on its ultimately repercussions to her choices. He's made that crystal clear.
11:08 PM
PaulinaBasically just that. And cinnamon
11:09 PM
ViOf couse cinna too. I forgor the pup
11:11 PM
ViI just feel for you dude
11:11 PM
ViIt makes me legit angry and want to strait up bitch cass out
11:12 PM
ViI know it wouldn't do anything though.
11:12 PM
ViMeth makes you a shitty person..
11:12 PM
PaulinaI think he's ultimately lapsed because his tooth (luckily. Appointment tomorrow to get it fixed), he found a baby crotchet thing his mom had (which was pretty sad. All she wanted was a grand baby), and some stuuuuupid shit with his "business" partner who's just bad news popped up. He's being trying to break it off with him but we just found out a. Couple hours ago he stole from our house when we werent here last week.
11:13 PM
PaulinaIt's like. Ugh
11:13 PM
PaulinaI get this all sucks. But shit he does this shit and it just amplifies it. I don't and will never understand people who get high to "escape" reality
11:14 PM
ViI mean it must be painful but damn. Normal peeps tough shit out. I just feel like theres no excuse. Bad news?
11:15 PM
PaulinaI know cass is an amazing person and this too shall pass with his mom. The worst of his grieving is definately over. But I want him. To just steer clear of this dude.
11:15 PM
ViThe fuck. Its just been a giant roller coaster
11:15 PM
ViIts just one thing after the next
11:16 PM
PaulinaThe other two dudes he sell quanity is like the smoothest sailing. They're wildly reliable. One of them holds down a 50 hour week job and he's providing his his family of five.
11:16 PM
PaulinaBut th idiot partner keeps cass like spinning. He comes up with the dumbest shit and upset cass. From. The beginning I was ljke cass don't give this dude a chance he's wishy washy and bad news.
11:18 PM
ViI understand recreational uses but if your life sucks that bad. Change it or learn how to tolerate. Its been hard but hanna has just become so pathetic and weak to me. We still talk off and on but I just want to tell her not to talk to me. I don't know if i overthink it. But when i see pics with her and atlas. I don't feel like love is there?
11:18 PM
PaulinaHes like one of his shit girlfriend ds
11:18 PM
ViFuck. Annnd he didn't listen to you
11:19 PM
PaulinaI mean shit. Sometimes important people have to bounce just to show them how far they've fallen
11:19 PM
ViShe straight up lied to lisas face about money thay she asked for donavan. She spent it. She gambles and does meth.. just how dare her do that to atlas while she got a nice fucking life
11:20 PM
PaulinaA few days ago cass and I had an amazing talk. He genuinely said Thank you for being there. He was like I'm. Pretty sure I'm still alive through this because of you. I forced him to eat and shit.
11:20 PM
PaulinaUugggh dude the gambling.
11:21 PM
PaulinaWhen it's just me and cass and cinna and his dad sometimes even forrest as of late, everyone is happy. Nothing bad happens
11:22 PM
ViI mean yeah. I've always been on hannas side. Dumb bitch. When i asked her why she did it. She said she had already done everyhing else.. she got mixed up with this street kid timmy and i swear if i ever see him I'm making a spectacle. Fucking devil is what he is.
11:22 PM
PaulinaðĪĢðĪĢðĪĢI hope the fuck you do make a spectacle.
11:23 PM
PaulinaGod. Shes so young too
11:23 PM
ViThat's good. I just hope things work out for you,no matter what it is
11:23 PM
PaulinaBrit started cass when he was 21
11:23 PM
ViYou're too good mama
11:24 PM
ViShe started him off?
11:24 PM
ViShes only just 21 now I think
11:24 PM
PaulinaBrit started when she was 14
11:24 PM
ViDid they get abused??
11:24 PM
PaulinaI don't think so
11:24 PM
PaulinaThey're dad was a coke dealer but I think he switched weed dealer after the kids were born and they moved. To oregon
11:25 PM
ViLike they were bored? Or what damb
11:25 PM
ViI just never understood the appeal
11:25 PM
PaulinaBrit hung around shitty people I guess
11:25 PM
ViI hear it feels good but I see the meth pics and say no thank you
11:25 PM
ViSpectacle imma tell him hes a piece of shit.
11:26 PM
ViHe's the bottom of my shoes
11:26 PM
PaulinaKaren said they felt. Something was off after she came. Back. From. A sleep over and he logged on her computer to find messages about doing drugs. I think they started shooting up that age too
11:26 PM
ViDamn thats so young.
11:26 PM
PaulinaWho tf shoots up at 14
11:27 PM
PaulinaWhat kind of people was she chilling with
11:27 PM
ViI have the dude of fb and he had a tat of 666 i was like really. I want him to kill himself
11:27 PM
PaulinaSo yeah. That's the sitch. Or at least some. Of it lol
11:27 PM
ViLisa said shit didn't get bad till timmy. She has a weird obession with him. It might be part of it
11:28 PM
PaulinaWhat a dumb name
11:28 PM
ViBrianna even said he was bad news using meth when he was at reynolds
11:28 PM
PaulinaTimmy noodle head
11:28 PM
ViSkinny tall black kid
11:29 PM
PaulinaI don't thi k I'll know him but I'll look him up later lol
11:29 PM
ViHanna said he said he was the devil once. I can't stand her psychosis shit
11:29 PM
ViIt just makes me sad
11:29 PM
ViShe was like my litter sisiter3
11:30 PM
ViI'm pretty sure shes forever fucked up..
11:30 PM
ViSometimes i honestly think she would be better off dead
11:31 PM
ViI get harsh when it comes to stuff
11:31 PM
ViThat upsets me. It might be the emotions but that's a fragment of how i feel
11:31 PM
PaulinaI've wished brit and forrest were dead.
11:32 PM
PaulinaThen forrest got cool
11:32 PM
ViI've wished forrest was dead
11:32 PM
ViThen harely bitched me out for being harsh
11:32 PM
PaulinaAnd I was like damn that would've been fucked up if he did die and I never got to see him be cool.
11:32 PM
ViHanna causes so much damage. U saw her break a window in a rage. I would rather see her dead then hanging out with street trash
11:33 PM
PaulinaBe at peace lol
11:33 PM
ViI'm glad hes working to be better
11:33 PM
ViProved us both worng
11:33 PM
PaulinaHes looked actually clean for. A bit too
11:34 PM
PaulinaI... Don't know actuallt
11:34 PM
PaulinaHe talked about the black chick. With a kid for awhile being his gf but he just never brought that up again
11:34 PM
Vi.maybe she found a new daddy
11:36 PM
PaulinaHer kid would. Call. Forrest dad
11:37 PM
PaulinaI was like forrest that's a red flag
11:37 PM
PaulinaYou've only known the kid for. A. Week
11:38 PM
ViShe was gonna trap him
11:41 PM
PaulinaI don't think so
11:43 PM
PaulinaKid just sounds like mommy goes through a lot of men and has daddy issues
11:43 PM
ViA good mom wouldn't let their kid do that
11:46 PM
PaulinaFeel bad for the kid.
11:47 PM
ViI get those daddyo issues
11:47 PM
PaulinaAt the vid
11:47 PM
PaulinaNot yo issues
11:48 PM
PaulinaYou're... Actually not super bad with your daddy issues
11:48 PM
PaulinaI'd say your mommy issues are maybe more pronounced than your dads.
11:48 PM
WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 17 2018
Vi
ViIt was pretty funny.
1:04 AM
ViNot as bad as i could be
1:05 AM
ViI kinda liked to fuck around with guys alot
1:05 AM
ViI mean i liked sex and i am alittle freak
1:05 AM
ViBut i kinda wanted to feel validated or wanted by guys. I liked the attention
1:06 AM
PaulinaThe only time I ever was like whoa slow. Down there buckaroo was when you tried to go after jabroni
1:06 AM
ViSex kinda was a slight form of self harm for me
1:06 AM
ViI didn't always like it. I just wanted to do it
1:06 AM
ViI felt bad as soon as i came
1:07 AM
PaulinaI feel you. But I think a lot of girl kinda are that way even without having daddy issues. I love my papa but Im. Kinda like that
1:07 AM
ViI was like nope nope nope
1:07 AM
PaulinaAnd then didn't feel safe or comfortable to voice out and say stoo
1:07 AM
ViGuys don't get it so much
1:07 AM
PaulinaI know the feel.
1:07 AM
ViOr at least i dunno
1:07 AM
ViYeah i didn't know how to say no at all
1:08 AM
PaulinaMe neither.
1:08 AM
PaulinaIt's like I was afraid to
1:08 AM
ViI was always afraid of them getting mad at me
1:08 AM
PaulinaOr I would be in the wrong if I did
1:08 AM
ViLike i was a tease or a bitch
1:08 AM
ViThey really didn't teach us how to say no
1:08 AM
ViAnd neither did my mom
1:09 AM
ViBri was pretty much the first person to make me feel like i was in control of my body
1:09 AM
ViShe would hangout with dudes get frisky and leave without sex tons of times
1:10 AM
Paulina"that's all I needed"
1:10 AM
ViI always admired her when she told my little 19-20 year old self that
1:10 AM
Vii just wanted to make out sometimes
1:10 AM
PaulinaCertain guys were easier to say no to. I guess. Dillon was a whole. New level of fear
1:11 AM
ViI'm sorry you were dealing with that
1:11 AM
ViHe was bigger and stronger
1:11 AM
ViWhen i first hungout with harley and we were getting hot and heavy he kinda scared me
1:12 AM
ViI was like this guy could do whatever
1:12 AM
PaulinaBut then also like... That's aPpealing within itself
1:13 AM
PaulinaSo many mixed messages lol
1:13 AM
ViI kinda had sex with this guy who crossed boundaries with me and i kinda got scared i was gonna get raped.. then we had sex?
1:14 AM
PaulinaI smell like feet and underneath my cute sweaters I can smell my armpits and my. Vagina smells weird
1:14 AM
ViBut i wanted it?
1:14 AM
ViIt was so weird
1:14 AM
ViAlso hot. And it was the only guy who ever dirty talked me real good
1:15 AM
PaulinaSometimes. It really depended too
1:15 AM
PaulinaThat's always awesome
1:15 AM
ViI like that shit. Call me dirty.
1:15 AM
PaulinaShy boys are OK but a chatty boy is always so much better
1:15 AM
ViHe litrally said my fanasties it was crazy
1:15 AM
ViHe was like 40 and buff. He was a mason
1:16 AM
PaulinaThat sage experiences lol
1:16 AM
ViI thought it was gonna be a sugar daddy sitch but it didn't turn out
1:16 AM
PaulinaOh yeah how'd that end
1:17 AM
Vi.. i expected money after we hungout and he like gave me bus fair and i was like NAHH
1:17 AM
PaulinaLolol fuuuuck that's fucked but comedy gold
1:17 AM
Vihe ended up fucking this gurl names jasmin who was skinny and pretty who went to our school
1:17 AM
PaulinaWeird howd you find out
1:18 AM
Vi[photo]1:18 AM
ViIt made me feel weird
1:18 AM
PaulinaHahaha a modern romance
1:18 AM
ViI was supossed to be his painting model then he fucked me
1:18 AM
Paulinayou WAS ROSE BITCH HAHA
1:19 AM
ViVery inappropriate
1:19 AM
PaulinaTitanic millenia l
1:19 AM
PaulinaThat's crazy
1:20 AM
ViWhat lololololololol
1:20 AM
PaulinaDid he paint you like one of his French girls
1:20 AM
ViHe fucked me like a french prostitute
1:21 AM
PaulinaFuuuuuuckkk
1:21 AM
Viðððð
1:21 AM
Paulinaðððâ ïļ
1:21 AM
PaulinaHey, at least it's a good story now
1:21 AM
ViKinda wish I stuck around
1:21 AM
ViI feel like he would of bought me shit
1:22 AM
PaulinaA few more rounds of fun
1:22 AM
PaulinaLolol very hot
1:27 AM
ViDo you like curry?
1:28 AM
PaulinaYellow curry
1:30 AM
ViCan i call you in a few?
1:31 AM
ViImma bout to walk to get food
1:31 AM
ViBut red is also tasty :)
1:31 AM
PaulinaLol most probably
1:32 AM
ViIs that like a maybe?
1:32 AM
PaulinaI'm Tryna snapchat call my. Bro, I suspect it to be short tho
1:32 AM
ViKk. Imma bout to order some take out and take my ass to go get it i think
1:33 AM
PaulinaTautay. My mom is video chatting me ass now too lol
1:40 AM
PaulinaUgh I hate their connectiin
1:40 AM
PaulinaShitty wifi :( I only got to peep my moms
1:46 AM
PaulinaFacebook it is
1:48 AM
PaulinaIt Hella froze
1:48 AM
PaulinaYass that's how it gotta be done
2:30 PM
ViGod i couldn't take a bath without it
2:30 PM
ViAfter that spa day i really want to do more shit like that
2:30 PM
ViTake care of my body
2:31 PM
ViAlso I'm so stiff. I'm about as flexible as a pipe
2:31 PM
PaulinaYa need some of that foaming bath and tile cleaner
3:07 PM
PaulinaWorks so goos
3:07 PM
ViI kinda like bleach
3:12 PM
ViUsing bleach makes me feel good
3:12 PM
PaulinaSmells. So good
3:12 PM
PaulinaI almost joked and said I wish cass smelled like bleach but like his feet have smelled so sour it smelled like ammonia and that was so repulsive
3:13 PM
ViHe should do foot soaks
3:37 PM
ViMe and harley are constantly fighting athletes foot ð
3:37 PM
PaulinaDid you drownd
4:13 PM
PaulinaOh man. Imma miss you. Rest in pieces
4:56 PM
ViI would miss you so much if i died
5:10 PM
ViWho am i gonna talk to
5:10 PM
ViHe'll tell me all the dirt
5:18 PM
ViWe'll talk about all the fugly biotches
5:18 PM
ViI'll paint his hoofs
5:18 PM
Paulina"she looks so ew."
5:19 PM
ViAnd he can braid my hair
5:19 PM
PaulinaOmg how cuttteee
5:19 PM
PaulinaAccidentally burns it
5:19 PM
Vi[photo]5:19 PM
PaulinaOnly. Means you gotta prank. Him
5:19 PM
PaulinaPost it on youtube
5:19 PM
PaulinaWhoa lookit. You miss crafty clever on lol
8:00 PM
ViI'm really happy to have my earrings organized
8:10 PM
ViAlso my sunglasses in a more accisable place
8:10 PM
THURSDAY, OCTOBER 18 2018
Vi
PaulinaHow was work
8:34 PM
ViIt was okay beside being crazy tired for a bit. I worked with tim in clackamas
11:19 PM
Vi Isaac needed me to work over there
11:19 PM
ViTHEIR FREEZER IS COLDER THAN OURS
11:19 PM
ViBut overall not too bad. For some reason i can find shit easier in the freezer over there. I like the setup of how they have it
11:20 PM
PaulinaShould take pics and make.your store copy it lol
11:21 PM
FRIDAY, OCTOBER 19 2018
Vi
PaulinaWhen you screamed and almost hit that elevator door you sounded like Homer Simpson ðð
5:34 AM
ViI was having such a good time
8:44 AM
PaulinaAwww. I miss foggy Portland.
1:40 PM
ViFirst fog i think
1:40 PM
PaulinaHope I make it back there soon
1:41 PM
ViPortland misses you
1:42 PM
PaulinaI miss my people lol
1:42 PM
ViScary homeless lady misses you
1:42 PM
PaulinaShe probably does tho
1:42 PM
PaulinaAnyone else else would've walked away
1:42 PM
PaulinaBut I stayed
1:42 PM
PaulinaAnd made eye contsct
1:43 PM
ViYou were the only one who really listened and understood what she was saying
1:44 PM
ViSame wavelength you and me
1:44 PM
PaulinaAw man... Gives me chills I can just imagine the smell... I love Portland weather
1:45 PM
PaulinaI woke up to the heat turned up again I was pissed.i was like bitch I got my Parka on calm your shit
2:02 PM
PaulinaCap'n so cute. He still in the honeymoon faze for you ðð
2:03 PM
PaulinaEverything about him is sage wise and older but that for you is still kitten lovs
2:03 PM
ViWhy does he turn it up so high...
2:19 PM
ViHe wants to be so close to me
2:19 PM
SUNDAY, OCTOBER 21 2018
Vi
PaulinaLol its like you and cass are two peas in a pod
10:49 PM
MONDAY, OCTOBER 22 2018
Vi
ViWhat makes you say that??
1:17 AM
PaulinaY'all shaving your pubes and getting it all over the seats
1:33 AM
PaulinaShe gets along with the cats?
12:04 PM
ViI don't know yet
4:35 PM
ViThey do okay. Capt and bell but sometimes i don't like the way bella looks at him like a snack
4:35 PM
ViWhy is it the best?
9:59 PM
ViCuz u ain't gotta worry about getting pregananate?
9:59 PM
PaulinaIt's crazy hot and heavy
10:01 PM
ViMaybe Cuz u know your gonna have a life together. Bundle of joy?
10:11 PM
ViAlso the last of sex before you got a screaming baby?
10:11 PM
PaulinaIdk Cassidy and I chemistry is just like almost always 100%. A little bit of everything except the last of sex before baby lol I'm fairly sure we both still gon get freaky after.
10:13 PM
ViThat chemistry is always good
10:15 PM
PaulinaI think we both like the idea of having a family and trust we will be good parents. It's also like another level of bonding and closeness? Cass is getting out of his mom loss fog and coming back to normal. It's actually really nice
10:19 PM
ViI think you'll be good. Cass will be a goofy dad. It is a new level. That's really good to hear. I know its been bad.
10:24 PM
Paulina Hes slowly coming back and im so happy. Kind of answers why Ive stayed when I've been so close to just going. I hope I never get to see him hurting like that again.
10:26 PM
ViI'm so happy for you ma.a.
11:03 PM
ViIts hard to leave the ones you love
11:04 PM
ViYou wanna be there for them.
11:05 PM
ViAnd support them. Be there 100%
11:05 PM