Lol you and you're scraps of weird daily diaries

Nah, I thought that was normals

I have boxes of old boyfriend stuff

I'm aight. With all going on I think it sunk in and overwhelmed me and put me in a weird quiet mode

And Cass kinda topped it off with him reacting kind of more on his wild side, which as always, made me feel worse in a different way. So just trying to slump out of that currently. How you be?

Nothing really. Helped earlier. I just kinda spaced out and cried a. Lot.

Lol omg

Oh, send me. Some

Along with a buttcheek

Yeah that's fine

Cheek has to be fresh tho

Left

Cuz I don't wanna be right

But I had you at buttcheek

That's the real moral of the story

Omfg you're fab fab fab

This is my house dude.

Yeah.

It's just.... Always like this.

He goes through his moms stuff, gets emotionally wrecked and wrecks the house

He started crying and screaming earlier and it gave me a panic attack really bad. I had to go uostairs

It's pretty bad

I fucking give up

He's just gotta learn to outlet his emotions different.

Instead of doing drugs and fucking going crazy. Literally. Crazy.

Less but it's still using

I told him. To. Be done. With it before the baby comes

I don't fucking know

Awe. You look so cute. You gotta dress me one day

Yes

That's silly

I was too.

I don't know.

"a religious conversation"

Yeh

Oh shi

et

You want out without him? Then didn't come. Home?

Hmm. I don't blame ya? Lol

It's that time dude. Sometimes a fights gonna hapoen

O I'm up and cleaning, if you Wanna ring that's cool, if you can video chat even better.

Mmkay. I'm might not pick up the first time, I'm gonna be all over the house for laundry

Omg is that the bahy she nannies?

Soooo cuuuttee

That's angel kitty. Brittany's cat

Lol she does. I thought that too

Good. Doc says baby is a good size

Both healthy ones

That's good

Going to urgent care isn't a bad idea.

Life sometimes goes hard sometimes. It sucks ass sometimes.

You should

Ah, that's not so good

Lol my acid reflex is being a motherfucker right now. I'm not too happy I'm awake rn

I'm so tired

I'm so tired

Just Tums.

I was distracting myself with YouTube before bed too

For a second. I woke up choking on acidic stuff.

I been waking up like that more often

Lol good ole Jeffrey star n shane

Lol I could see that

Lol wtf is up with biting cats

It was ok. Cassidy had Jimi over all night and day. He was a handful and was wearing Cassidy thin by the end of the day. I understand why Cassie choked him a couple nights ago.

I wanted to choke Jimi out today too lol

I think she choked him a day or two before you got choked

Choking season I guess

No dude, at first I was like damnnn but it actually is kind of funny

Hes just childish. Keeps blaming her for shit and treating her like shit. He had it cominf

No Cassidy was going to do computer stuff with him but his head isn't even on straight and they didn't really do what he planned on them doing

He's so scattered. Way more scattered than you. He's like old Vic times 10

He was hard to watch. He wasted a bunch of Cassidy's time and mine

For me it was whatever. But sucked for Cass. He keeps trying to escape his reality by making other people his problem. If that's what he wants to waste his energy on then so be it. I ain't gonna stress on his shit no more

Who Jimi and Cassie? Probably not. I talked to Cassie finally, she's planning on going to her mom's in Ohio, only an hour away. I think that's a good idea

She's so sweet. She invited me to come with her. I would love to meet her mum but if anything I should be staying at grammas. Did I tell you Grandpap had a stroke?

Im not sure. He had the stroke Sunday I think.we haven't seen him. We found out during a big fight Cass and me were having. I called his Gramma up when I got the text and just lost it while talking to her.

I got so sad thinking how my baby didn't get to meet one of her grandmas and then how she might not meet her great grandpa

Death makes me so sad

Saying goodbye is sad, but never being able to say hello hurts so much worse

I think she's scared. Scared of being alone. I've been trying to go see her for a minute now, Cass has been pushing it off

Me too girl.

I'm ok rn. Bridget has been talking to me recently. I think she felt my heartache.

Lots of tears. Good, bad. Happy sad

I was feeling really alone there for awhile. The universe reminds me that Cass isn't my everything and I have plenty of other people around me who care.

I think you're onto something when you say he doesn't want to deal with it. I think it does stress him out too. Basically his mom's side is dying, and all before our baby comes. It's pretty tragic

I get it... I just wish he would come see them with me. I think it's important but I also know he's really emotional about it and I can't be angry at that

Omg girl my acid reflex is so awful but I would kill for a ham, and avacado sandwich

I wish niggas would stop trying you, bih

Let a Vic be

Motherfuckers need to quit

Vic I'm starving. But if I eat I'll die

Yeah, he's a butt

Whyre people so...idk inconsiderate about the. People who love them the most?

Usually ice cream but rn everything kills me. Even watee

Water

Harls has some fucked up mental roadblocks

I wish Cass would rest

Yeah, she's only 2 miles away from here too lol

What?

It's so weird to see you say nigger lol I know I say it all the time

Desperate times lol

Yeah. Grandmas really upset we hVent visited. She gets super upset because we live so close

Oh what's she say

Read it

Thats...oddly more civilized than I thought she would be

Yeah I was wondering about that

Oh that's cool

Yeah you'd have some bruised knuckles

Ugh. Cassidy was doing whippits all night last night. We went to see his grandma and had dinner. Before we left she pulled me aside to ask how he was doing. I said not so good. She told me I could come over there and stay when ever I needed to.

I might actually do that. I just want a good night's rest. I haven't gotten that in months man.

He's always awake at night

She do.

At least ur grandma heard you out

I've experienced more consideration for my health and safety from complete methed out strangers compared to how Cassidy has treated me

Fuk man, I'm glad you went then

Wouldn't want an undiagnosed concussion